As a kid growing up watching Star Trek, I have to admit that Mr. Spock was the character I could most relate to. Captain Kirk and Bones, the doctor? Nah, way too excitable. I understood Spock's way of thinking; That response doesn't adhere to logic or reason. You must analyze the situation further. Add cynicism to that mix, and you have - me. (And, yes, I DID grow up in Vulcan, Alberta.)
Emotionally stunted? Me? Probably. Growing up, I preferred to hang with the guys; girls got too worked up over every little thing. Half the time, I couldn't figure out what I had done to tick off one or the other of my girlfriends; no one spelled it out for me. I was just 'supposed to knoNeedless to say, I'm not an emotionally demonstrative person. It's not that I don't care; I just don't show it. Even my characters that I've created spend a lot of time and energy avoiding emotional situations. But of course, in writing about their growth, I need to get into that mindset. Emotional issues are what make us care about characters; how they affect the characters and the reader.
Now, imagine Mrs. Spock, sitting at the computer, tears streaming down her face as she writes the post-climactic scene to her YA novel. (At least THAT was in the privacy of my office.)
Again, imagine same Mrs. Spock on the family holiday, and at seeing all four of her daughters (and one of their boyfriends) pile into a vehicle to head home a few days early, suddenly out of the blue, burst into tears, sobbing. More than just the jaws of the five passengers dropped. I scared everyone, including my husband. And myself. I had allowed myself to feel fear and uncertainty.
One good thing came out of it; my heavy-footed daughter took extra time driving the usually three hour trip, and her sisters texted me every half-hour to let me know they were still alive.
So, I'm thinking, this writing journey might actually help me to become human, eventually:0)
How has your writing journey affected your life?